“Life is a series of natural and spontaneous changes. Don't resist them; that only creates sorrow. Let reality be reality. Let things flow naturally forward in whatever way they like.”
I feel that my life really is full of spontaneous changes at the moment. After a long job search my husband finally found a job he was really excited about just to have the company fold two months later. We also have been on a roller coaster trying to sell our house and are left in a bit of limbo. All of these changes and uncertainties come with life and training falls on the list of priorities.
For a couple weeks I resisted my reality, tried to muster through peak training for Cabo while trying to pretend I wasn't miserable. But I finally decided that I needed to re-prioritize and accept the training for an ironman next month is not my reality right now.
I am very sad about this decision as I have been looking forward to this race for a long time and have put in weeks of work already. But as soon as I made the description I felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders. So I know it's the right choice. I am also excited to train again with a renewed focus on Ironman Canada.
On the up side the trip to Mexico will still happen since it has already been paid for and I will have a blast cheering on my friends that are racing.
So here's to accepting where I am and moving forward with a smile.